Final Project 3 : Ego
Task: Create 12 Panels depicting of (Me, Setting and Outcome), with any medium.
I strung together some quick development into style and colour research before I actually went into anything deep, in order to get a clearer picture of what I would be expecting for the end result of the 12 panels.
After researching, I decided that vector-style best represent who I am; for its varying ability to be complex yet simple at the same time. It will also bring out the colours most strongly in my opinion.
I did some quick thumbnails on some possible drafts for the 12 panels, and worked out the details from there. By deciding on a favourite/ particularly impressionable colour scheme, I then associated the feeling attached to the colour (e.g. Blue = Depression); and begin planning some compositions from there. The sketches above are for, more or less, the finalised drafts of the work.
I mainly drew inspiration from the Dementors from Harry Potter, as they give off the intimidating feeling wanting others to leave them alone; to which I feel a relation to.
Though I chose to reflect insecurity by getting the Me in the picture to grasp at the cloth as though concealing myself from the public eye, rather than the frightful imagery that the Dementors give off.
(Left: Dementor Concept Art, Right: Style Reference: Simon Delart – Tumblr Artist)
I went with a more fractured kind of vector to show the layers and turmoil one can feel during a depressive state, as well as the many layers people will chose to hide themselves in after finding themselves in such a predicament.
I went with Escher’s Maze-like design to show a myriad of pathways and choices, con-notating on how life has many possibilities one can take; and by entering one door it leads you to even more possibilities.
(Below: Escher’s Work)
Outcome – When I am Depressed, Confined.
When I am depressed or confined, I tend to lose track of myself and hide back into my comfort zone (the shelter of the cloth) despite missing out on potential opportunities in various walks of life. The downward, spiralling staircase with me at the bottom also shows how I am at the very abyss, and when you stare at it; it stares back at you (aka. if you are stuck in a situation and if you do nothing about it, the situation won’t help itself improve). Inspired mostly from Picasso’s blue period for the colour scheme; from the Blind-man’s Meal (Below).
2) Set 2: Complimentary Colour (Blue and Yellow)
Me (As a Young Soul Venturing forth)
I choose to represent myself as a lion in a suit; for the fact that society favours courage and venturing qualities when it comes to the working life; as they always say “Go forth and Conquer”. Lions have been know as a symbol of courage, strength and tenacity since the medieval times upon European coat of arms and mythology. I drew inspiration from modern, oil-painting artist Ryohei Hase as well for the Animal-headed figures.
(Below: Ryohei Hase’s Works)
Setting : Crowds (With People in general)
Being the introvert I am (based on the 16 Personality Test online that I am an INFP), I inherently dislike crowds and the hustle-bustle throngs of people bring forth. Hence such, I utilised the complimentary colour scheme since it meant general discomfort to me from its ability to disturb the eye.
(Below: Drew inspiration of the arrangement from concerts where there are many crowded into an area at once.)
For the final, I drew in the comparison of how society’s norm and expectation of how people are expected, naturally, to be going with the flow and play amongst company politics in order to find our place in life.
3) Pastel (Soft Colours)
Me (Comfort Zone)
Initially, I started out with the drafts of an angel (Humanoid with Wings); and then I decided hey, why not let it go and see what my pen brings me to. Thus, I simply drew with a single thought in mind: to represent myself when I am feeling the most contented and happy.
Setting (Home-ish, Warm Place)
I simply went the track of “how do I represent a comfortable area in a manner that is to the point”; and I came up with the game-ish concept of a mini-space of comfort.
Outcome: Relaxed, Comfortable Me
I feel the happiest, and the most relaxed when I am resting within my comfort zone. Hence the soft colours and relaxed ‘mascot’-me.
4) Green Analogous (Greens, Blues)
Me (Jaded, Over-Confident)
Green, to me as a colour, is the colour of Nature and Envy. And being envious of people is part and parcel of how humans naturally react, though whether we react negatively or positively to the emotions is another story. The pieces of Jade attached to me symbolises me hidden behind my own ignorance of Envy and Confidence.
Setting (Technology, Advancement)
Greenish, Lab setting to show the sense of Technology; and how technology is a double-edged sword. It can grant humble people the power to empower other’s lives, and yet destroys with people’s over-reliance on its omnipotence.
Outcome: Presumptuous Me, Overconfidence.
Inspired by the iron throne in the Game of Thrones, the final piece delved into the world of me being jaded and too overconfident in my work due to my past experiences (my knowledge over the others); resulting me in a sense of (dangerous) over-entitlement in myself. By placing myself in a laid back pose, it depicts myself in a state where I believe I reign supreme over all, the King of my own presumption within my own world.
The lack of details in the background shows that it is only myself that believes in such a fact, and that I have went too deep into my ego and need to bring myself back into reality again; to stay humble and steadfast.
(Below: Iron Throne from the Game of Thrones)
Final Works – (Digital Print Ver. Followed by the Physical)
It is certainly an eye-opening experience for the EGO project; since we had to delve deep into our subconscious and truly LOOK at ourselves from exterior in. I definitely could have explored further in times of the mediums and ideas (food for thought for the future), and pushed myself beyond what I was expecting to reach another boundary.
Though so, it is safe to say that the project has helped me understand myself much, much more. In terms of self-reflection, concepts and art approach.