To be honest, i was totally scared when i know that we are going to do this project.. Ego. meaning self-discovery, showing the others who I am. I have never really thought much about myself, and i felt that i am bad at expressing those ideas. After studying the references, i thought of doing the very literal narrative version of me.
In order to come out with this, i wrote down a list of words and feelings that i would associate with myself.
The idea behind these boards are mainly “bird”, “japan” , “nana (my favourite singer)”
I drew the first line which was Nana+ bird = me!(in concert)
As I continue drawing, I had that idea of turning my bird into representing me. I found that idea to be cute and interesting so I went on doing the other boards doing that.
After consulting with Prof Ina, I do agree that this is too little for me as there are still a few weeks more to go, I should research more about what do i really want to do.
I have decided to use “Japan” as my main research theme and decide to find designs surrounding it.
I had these 2 ideas, one on shadows and one on birds. I didnt start on the shadows as i didnt know how to approach it. However, the idea struck me as i was on the way to a class with my father on a morning. I saw the shadows and thats it! I am going to do a stop motion shadow film. Instead of having the real me, what i want to show will be the shadow of me going to the different places, meeting friends and people. Looking at the shadows, we will become self conscious, it is also and journey of self searching. What we do are portrayed exactly by our shadows, there is no way to hide.
The music is an experiment if i can put this kind of music with my image (i am not sure how well it is working?)
The one without sound
I am not too sure how to end the film though… all suggestions and ideas are greatly appreciated! I am also struggling to choose between this and the birds (ŏ﹏ŏ｡)
I have this idea of filming the journey of birds, the journey of them surviving in this city life. This is a compilations of several clips that i took without much editing…yet. I wanted to show their daily life and also how they congregate and go through journey of their daily routine? Since birds do always go back to the same things. It seems like they kind of have a fix programme in their body?
I was able to take the train from jurong east to tiong bahru today and i thought it would be good to start experimenting with some things. I really liked the “system” photo taking. What i did here was to take photos when i reach every station. As the journey continued, i realised that there were alot of interesting and pretty shadows caused by the sun and also the sun itself which integrated into my photo taking.
This video is a simple compilation of the photos taken.
I felt that this was series of photos for me to portray who I am, and what I am. I am not someone who easily expresses my inner feelings out (even to the people closest to me). There seemed to be a gap between me and the other party, not one that is intentional, but unknowingly. As much as i want to express my true feelings or problems, it is always hard. After much thinking, one of the easiest way is to portray it through a proxy,in this case my pooh which has been by my side for so many years. Unexpected revelations and explorations through this short journey of self portraits.
Selecting the photos is one thing, deciding how to group and display them is totally another matter. For this installation, it is divided into 2 side, the first 3 (inverted L shape) as a group and the right L as another. The 3 of them flows as a group. the 2 photos on the last row are purposely place out of the perfect rectangle. It has that sense of being “drop out” and yet, with them, it completes the picture. My purpose is to make the viewer’s mind fill in the missing gap (which humans love doing). They function as a whole, as function well individually too.
the 4 that didnt get selected for the final
The final 12.
What u see on the outside doesnt necessary represent how i am truly feeling
love how this moment pooh and i has the same expressions //the main reason this was chosen into the final
the flow of action/human. foreground v mid v back. and pooh blends in seamlessly
Thats all folks~ thanks for reading. Even though this assignment was brain wrecking(for me) and cause me a fever~ it was all worth it^^ for knowing myself a little better
Finally, after the first 2 rounds of photos, i guess that i got a clearer picture of what I wanted. Prof gave a very valuable suggestion on how i should be in the photo with pooh (which i tried to avoid alot in the previous rounds). I guess this was the best way (for now) to show the connection between me and my pooh. The different expressions that he can make, and using this, I selected the theme of “daily life”, which i suppose it will shows me, for what i do and who i am.
a rough plan on scenes to take
With me finally stepping out of the house, the photos that i gathered in the end was a humongous amount (>1000 photos!!!!) I am not kidding.
In a public environment, and doing weird things like buying and eating ice kachang with pooh is bound to get many weird stares and comments throughout the session. It caused quite a little commotion with me taking these photos in a quite crowded kopitiam and the stall owners were all discussing about it. I have to explain to all of them that this is for my assignment. It is indeed embarrassing at first but when i was just focusing on how to get the pictures that i want, the surroundings didnt mattered to me anymore. The only thing worrying was if the management would chase me out of the place.
What i wanted initially was a 2 view of things. for e.g. POV of me & POV of pooh. some scenes were suited for this but some werent. Alot of photos got filtered out in the end. (PICKING 12!!!! from the 1000). This was a pretty great achievement for me XD
Some photos that might have made into the final 12:
After that first round of photo taking and discussing with Prof Vladimir, I realised that the photos didnt resound to me. They did not portray the emotions that i wanted and it didn’t show “self portrait”.
I still wanted pooh as my main object that will represent me. Hence this time i took a darker approach and played around with the natural lighting and silhouette. I realised that it was still the loneliness of being a only child that resounded more and i wanted to portray that.
acting with pooh
I loved the evening lighting that shone through the windows and how the light falls onto the pooh.
viewing in Pooh’s POV? at the same time, showing his scars.
What are we always looking at?
me/pooh. looking at the source of light, the end of the dark tunnel?
i like how the unfocused effects came out. staring at something too bright will cause us to lose sight of our goals.
Finally seeing whats behind that source of light.
This set of photos told(?) a story much better than the first time. however, they were all similar and only looking at one direction. even though i like the lighting, it is considered boring and it would make it as a set of photos.
After another consultation session with Prof, I realised that being stuck at home isnt the way to do this. TIME TO GO OUT AND GET SOME PICTURES!
Self portraits, it was something that I didnt really like exploring. Self portraits feels like exposing yourself to the whole world. Vulnerable.
After some brainstorming, i decided to go with the object that was closest to me. It was my first pooh stuff toy which my mum gave me as a present during kindergarten. It has been together with me since and hence i thought it would very well represent who i am.
brainstorm on how to frame the picture. realises that doing the actual positioning is really difficult
How pooh and I are always connected, sleeping together
being left alone. when the party is over
I really love this photo. showing the young me vs the pooh now
The scars accumulated over the years. Showing how pooh(me)has been through rough times
These are the first set of photos that I took. I wanted the theme of past vs present and it as my only friend as I am a only child.
I wanted my photos to give that sense of nostalgia and loneliness (as what i am feeling). The feeling of being left behind, and also, pooh represents me too.
After consulting, Prof Vladimir, we realised that pooh can portray emotions even though technically it is a inanimate object. Time to explore this in the next attempt!