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Hello there! Here are my final composition for the 4 x 3 series of Personal Trait, Situation and Imagined Outcome respectively! As mentioned in my previous post, I have decided on creating a series of Digital Art for this assignment as I explored with the
different methods such as Digital Illustration and Digital Painting and Photo Collaging.

My overall theme for these equation mainly revolves around a ‘digital me’ as I feel that the best way to represent myself, is myself.
Hence, you will tend to observe the recurring factor of human or signs of human in most of my composition.

Without further ado, let’s go check them out shall we!

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SERIES 1 – A CREATIVE ME 

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I would like to think that I have a rather creative repertoire to offer hence I have decided to use it as my first trait. The waves represents the creativity that flows within me just like they are in the ocean, naturally. There is a subtle attempt from me to blend the streaks of my hair into the ocean wave, symbolising my natural raw potential in the arts field(hahaha i laughed while typing this, honestly).

The colour composition included the colours of the sunset came about almost instantaeously when I decided to use the ocean wave, because what is better than the scenic view of the sunset while we stroll along the beach?

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SERIES 1 – IN SEARCH OF A CLEAR DIRECTION

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I have always had the dream of becoming an Architect but it seems to me that the route I have chosen seems to bring me further away from it. Meanwhile, I have no options but to brave through the cold through the stormy sea as I attempt to navigate my way back to my ultimate goal.

I have chosen the different tones of blue for this box to evoke the ice cold feeling of the harsh reality in society that things does not always go your way and sometimes, you might just have to take the longer route to achieve what you really want.

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SERIES 1 – INCOMPLETE

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As I have yet to successfully navigate to the destination I envsioned for myself, therefore I’m comparable to an incomplete puzzle – not yet the finished article. The reason of using grayscale tones for this composition is because until the day I feel like I’m actually the final product, the most complete version of myself, I just can’t see the colours in me.

EQUATION 2

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SERIES 2 – AN AMBITIOUS ME

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Despite my cheerful and nonchalent attitude towards many things in life, I actually do think a lot on the inside. I’m secretly very ambitious because I feel the need to succeed in life and the biggest motivation for me to do so is my family, hence the inclusion of the roots.

The colour component for this box is a colour scheme that I thought looked really beautiful. The dull tone of blue is my way of portraying my nonchalent attitude on the outside but the red shows how I think passionately and actively all the time.

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SERIES 2 – ME BEING PUT TO THE TEST UNDER IMMENSE PRESSURE

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When put under immense pressure to me feels like being thrown into a blaze of fire(which explains the colour scheme for this one), with the uncomfortable feeling of anxiety. However, the only time someone would grow and become better is when they step out of their comfort zone, only then will they improve and become better. In this case, I’m like an egg, that would crack under such stress but what is it that lies beneath me, just what could I find?

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SERIES 2 – THE DIAMOND THAT I ALWAYS HOPED I COULD BE

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A lump of coal under immense pressure could do one or two things, it either crumble and turn to dust and render it useless or the pressure will turn it into the diamond that you always hope it could be. In this case, the ideal outcome would be that I become the diamond I always hoped I would become.

The tones of brown are used to show that it’s no easy work to succeed in life, you got to have your face in the mud, and claw your way up.

EQUATION 3

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SERIES 3 – A FEARFUL ME

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This picture shows myself rooted to the ground, unable to move due to fear of actually doing something. I believe that I’m always thinking a lot, somewhat afraid of embarassment. The dull colour used for the background for this box attempts to evoke some sort of fear. The subtle dissolving effect represents me disappearing into air when I embarass myself. The red blush skin tone indicates my embarassment.

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SERIES 3 – GREEN WITH ENVY 

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Not taking the first step because of being afraid always result in seeing somebody else getting what you want. When that happens, you can only look on green with envy because what else can you do? Slowly but surely, that envy becomes jealousy and turns you into a ‘green-eyed monster’ and the orange hand in this box shows the last bit of human in me longing for that something or someone.

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SERIES 3 – AN EMOTIONAL WRECK

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Jealousy refers to the reaction to their envious resentment of someone of their achievements, possessions, or perceived advantage. In this series, it means me becoming an emotional wreck whereby I see myself going on a frenzy, destroying everything in my way because of the devastation. The green tone is used in this box mainly because jealousy is the main reason for my path of destruction.

EQUATION 4

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SERIES 4 – A HEARTBROKEN AND REGRETFUL ME

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The dull colours of the background indicates just the kind of life I would have (dark and gloomy) without her. However, she’s all I think of passionately everyday, as she’s the one I want to walk down that road together with.

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SERIES 4 – ATTEMPT TO GO BACK IN TIME TO REWRITE HISTORY

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In television shows and movies, they always associate travelling back in time with black and white which was why I decided to use black and white for this box as well. To me, going back in time also means going through several dimensions before finally reaching the past(not that I believe that time travelling actually exist). Similarly, in the media, melting seems like the ideal way to create a trippy effect of going back in time.

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SERIES 4 – HAPPILY EVER AFTER

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In this series outcome, I have successfully managed to travel back in time and relive the moments and make amends to the mistakes that I have made previously – facing my fear and going all out for someone or something that I know I want in my life.  In this box, the color selection for this box is to illustrate the ideal outcome of a happily ever after. Black is used to bring out the red color.

& that is all I have for this assignment! I hope that you have learnt a lot more about me through my twelve boxes and I also do realize after my illustrations that I’m rather pessimistic in life or at least it seems to portray that I’m. It’s not that bad to be honest… really… no don’t go away, please be my friend.

On a more serious note, I felt like I have taken every box for this assignment as an individual painting as itself and only connect the content in terms of narrative but less of having the same colour scheme throughout one full series. I thought that it would look better across as a whole with a different variety. Well, that’s only my individual opinion! It has been a fruitful last assignment as I felt like I have learnt so much new methods and techniques to create artwork digitally, which was something I always wanted to do, I’m extremely satisfied with both this project and my final work 🙂

PROJECT 3 – EGO

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