As a person living with Trichotillomania (TTM), I pluck out excessive amounts of my hair for emotional relief.
Not much is known about TTM, a behavioural disorder and part of the OCD spectrum, and its causes. As such, cases are underreported as many feel the shame of coming forward with the issue. Not to mention the feelings of shame, anger and disappointment a hair puller feels over the their lack of control over their impulses impacting their social lives and mental health. Lastly, the lack of awareness about the issue also makes it difficult for research to be done on it sparking tensions between therapy methods and feelings of the patient.
In response to these limitations, my FYP aims to explore how an illustrated graphic memoir can offer an account my personal experiences living with the condition and to spread awareness and understanding on the condition.
To look into:
- How people see you
- what decision did you make because of this
- what do they make you feel
- okay it is that I’m not cured
- this is how i see life
- there needs to be a take away
- some sort of insight into your stance
- did it affect you? what did you for?
- what learning did this person achieve reflection
- struggle to fit or not fit
- state of mind -> emotional states -> cut between reality and mental states
- not offering solutions -> but how i coped with it
- How I normalise myself
your patient story
HOW DO YOU FEEL? long term solutions?
- that narrative -> me coping with Trichotillomania
- how do you fight that urge -> how do you manage that
- how to you visual like the urge to pull?
- triggers -> how do I feel about them?
- Cutting one’s hair & concerns
- pondering about solutions
- how does it make you feel shows the tension of therapy and the feelings of the patient
- because of all this things this is why you never seek -> autobiographical
webpage vs book -> easy accessibility -> what does it aims to achieve -> advocate -> create awareness -> character
character -> how the world look at you -> yourself ->irony and contradictions about living with Trich
FYP not about advocacy -> more about accounting experience
unsettling quietness and loneliness through layout and muted colours
- Metaphorical storytelling: putting on characters
- Metaphor -> how you see the world looks at you