4D Project 1-Curating Self

Task 1: Object and Representation of Self

CRUMPLED

To me, crumpled paper is a representation of mistakes, rejected ideas and the failure to meet my own expectation.

This series intends to capture my several reaction to my own mistakes.

The choice of minimal and flat ground is to allow the texture of crumpled paper to really be the focus. thumb_IMG_20160828_124855_1024

Depressed, frustrated,  feeling small and helpless

The black creates a dense area at the corner, drawing audience’s attention, while being surrounded by the space that makes the figure look small.

The soft shadow intensifies the gloominess , while the blue tint makes it seem depressed.

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Facing the mistake, using the lesson learned as a key to open up endless new possibilities.

Using a high vantage point and the placement of myself in the upper half of the picture, I want to create an ambiguous environment/ background that intrigues the viewers and suggests wonder and infinity.thumb_IMG_20160828_14d3315_1024

 

The grip is to suggest frustration and struggle when we face mistakes and failures, yet it shows the determination, will and perseverance to tackle the problem.

The shirt in the second image and the hand in the third both serve to correspond with the texture of the crumpled paper, establishing a deeper relation between the human and the paper.

Photos that didn’t make it:

 

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Task 2: My World

SHE SAID OUTSIDE FOOD IS NOT HEALTHY SO SHE ALWASY COOKED FOR US

The kitchen in our house has always been my mom’s territory. The laid out kitchen wares, the stack of dishes to be washed as well as the bottle after bottle of condiments and cooking oil, all these details form a kitchen that is actively in use and been well taken of.The scene informs me my mom’s presence and comforts me.

However, the clustered scene seems to be missing the centre figure, my mom. I wanted to use the contrast to portray the absence of my mother, the one that gives life to the place. And by doing so, show my loneliness and emptiness when my mother is not in Singapore with me.IMG_1412 IMG_1407 DSC_1141 IMG_1430

Photos that didn’t make it

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My life in a movie poster

 

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(Pardon the low resolution)

Title: Snooze

Genre: The kind that makes you fall asleep

What pulls you out of the bed every morning?  Or is waking up just a habit?

Inspired by the quater-life existential crisis that sometimes hits me during shower. As well as the unhealthy procrastination that happens more often than I’d like to admit. Sometimes I lie in my bed all day when there’s no good reason to get up, snoozing the alarm repeatedly, hoping for some motivation to pop up before the next time it rings. It is as pathetic as it is luxurious.

 

 

Very flat composition with hardly any sense of depth, presenting the audience with a flat wall and nothing else, a passive confrontation,  having just enough texture and gradient to differ it from a blank piece of paper.

I kept the colour minimal to convey the sense of mundane, slightly faded to show the emptiness. White is used for both the clothes and bed sheet, allowing the subject matter to almost merge with the background, flattening the image further.

 

snooze draftI considered other composition , but I prefer the long stretch of wall with the horizontal lines at the bottom, finding the space and lines both contemplative and calming.

Paint with anything but a brush

Being more of a hands-on person,  my approach towards the project is to get my hands dirty before trying to generate an idea/concept. (Hence the lack of consideration in the tools/ process used :p)

Starting with the basic, I created spontaneous strokes using slightly unconventional tool / medium found at home.

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Left to right:

  1. Chinese ink, applied on wet cartridge paper using the rough side of scrub sponge.
  2. Chinese ink mixed with snake powder, applied on cartridge paper using a bundle of satay sticks.
  3. Chinese ink, applied on cartridge paper by tissue paper ball.
  4. Chinese ink, applied on cartridge paper by feathers.

Needless to say, the length, thickness and density of the strokes all affects the emotions conveyed. The short strokes creates flustered cluster while the bigger strokes appears more bold aggressive or confident.

The bleeding of the ink softens the marks,  rendering it slightly sentimental. On the other hand it reduces the intensity of the black and might weaken the emotion.

An interesting finding during this was the mixture of ink and snake powder. The paste-like consistency allows bleeding of ink while still keeping the shape and saturation of the original stroke. The thickness of it also allows subtle texture within the stroke.

Next, I went on to print making. I repeated the objects using different method, in an attempt to create different marks using the same tool.

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Top to bottom:

  1. Created by rolling a tissue paper ball, soaked in chinese ink, across cartridge paper.
  2. Apply ink onto tissue paper, allow it to try slightly and press it against cartridge paper.
  3. Same as above,  but spay water onto the tissue after pressing it against the paper, and lift it up promptly.
  4. Reverse print of a piece of tissue, using block printing ink.

The density and the details of the texture strangely reminds me of human skin (esp the second). To me that association brings to mind anxiety and the state of being over-sensitive.

 

Next, Tracing paper.

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Top to bottom:

  1. Apply chinese ink onto the folded tracing paper, then press it against the paper.
  2. same as above, with different amount of ink.
  3. Reverse print of the folded tracing paper, with block printing ink.

Tracing paper is harder than tissue, it creates more regular shapes and more structured folds. The white spaces increased and appears more distinct. The surface warps upon contact with water and adds details to the texture.

 

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The marks made by the cling wrap has sharper angles and edges, reminding me of glass shards, as well as many think lines,  giving it a sense of fragility.

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By putting the cling wrap on a wet paper, the small droplets of ink create a smooth flow across the paper. It appears soft but at the same time I find it slightly trippy or disturbing due to the high density of the small marks.

 

I also tried spreading block printing ink on the table, etching marks in it using different tools before I obtained the marks from the table using paper.

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top to bottom, marks made by:

  1. Brush
  2. Tissue paper
  3. uncooked instant noodle

This method allows a very drastic contrast between the black and white which would suit a strong and aggressive emotion. The first image has a curvy stroke which appears less intimidating, but the amount of black can be heavy and overwhelming. The last image paints a vivid image of recklessness.

 

 

After some experimentation, I noticed how a marks created by the same tool can turn out differently as ‘hard’ or ‘soft’, depending on the process used to produce the mark.

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I find the comparison parallel to that of explicit emotion and subtle emotion, as well as aggressive emotion and passive emotion.

It would be interesting if I can convey an emotion that is hidden beneath the surface, that is subtle and passive.

 

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Passive aggressive. The slit on the paper brings to mind sharp edges, injury or cuts , yet the mark is so thin and so unnoticeable.
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Using texture on black surface is another way of showing a subtle emotion, one would only notice the marks upon closer inspection.

 

Lastly, this series of print below is to show the progression of an emotion.  When we refuse to let go or resolve certain emotion (say, tenseness of hatred), the emotion might grow stronger, until it thickens and becomes too overwhelming to bear.

The prints are produced by mixture of chinese ink and snake powder on plastic sheet, pressed against paper. The snake powder mixture allows the ink to have a mould-like texture, which I find fitting for the idea of over-grown emotion.

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Even though this is merely technical experimentation, it allows me to practice expression using basic visual elements. I experimented without any planning, which gave room for happy accidents. I was able to pick up unexpected results and inspiration along the process.

The cleaning up tho D: