When the Ego assignment was first brought out, I knew I would at least address the duality of the realist and the idealist in me. But how I was to do that was the question. I initially started out with more literal representations of the ideal and real with the ideal of nature and the city. Where nature is ideal to me, and the real being the things that I face in human society that I find hard to agree with.

So I started looking at double exposure and attempted basic ways of mixing these together.

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After this I felt that I didn’t quite hit the point of colour theory and decided I should take a look at these theories and internalize them more before moving on. Then from that, I decided to change my compositions and to choose complementary contrasts to represent the uneasy struggle between the real and ideal in me.



I also thought about symbols that represented the real and the ideal. So I googled images as usual… and found that one symbol of reality was the symbol of an eye which made me think about the eye being the symbol of the reality that i witness around. If you read my ego reflections you’ll understand what the symbol of the eye means.

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I also found a yin and yang kind of symbol. And then it made me reflect and I realized that a part of me wishes to merge the real and ideal to create balance. So from that I knew what I desired to be, that is to be balanced between what is real and what is ideal. Hence the clenched hand on the ideal half of me

The idea of the Plus versus the Times was also developed through my reflection of merging the ideal and real. Merging, is what I desire. And desire is from a want of the ideal. So I found that the nature Plus and the Times really effectively encompass the value of an imperfect me and a unified me.

This is further expressed in my final decision of the colours red and blue after researching on Goethe who talked about warm and cool colours. This also effectively linked to triadic harmony of primary colours of red, blue and yellow. But I will come to that later. It is for the reason of leading to triadic harmony that for this panel, I used these two colours as temperature contrasts instead of using complementary contrasts.

Next is the equation of a better me. [ __ – __ = a better me]. From my earlier progress posts and from my presentation, you’d know that I put in algebraic representations, making the equation

Me – X = AB(an ideal/better me)


Knowing that there was this thing(X) in the way, I thought hard about what it was. Eventually I was curious to see if math could help me understand what it was. So in my presentation, you would have seen how I eventually turned the equation around to find that X is the inability to naturally unite the ideal and the real ( X = Me – AB ). Nature is what I believe in. Nature, Fate, God, whatever it is, I believe that there is something divine that sets things in place. This would lead me to my last equation. But before getting to that, I had to figure out how to visually represent AB(the ideal/better me). Initially I just put the symbols of the eye and heart together and combined the colours of red and blue to form AB in the equation. Then I found that the colours don’t come together well. So I introduced analogous harmony which blended things rather well, but it was still very warm and very obviously dominant in red because the violet that I had was closer to red than the blue that I had. It was only until a week before submission that I found William Blake.





The Good and Evil Angels 1795/?c.1805 William Blake 1757-1827 Presented by W. Graham Robertson 1939 http://www.tate.org.uk/art/work/N05057

Blake’s use of triadic harmony made things look very natural. Being from the romantic period, the theme of his paintings were very much inclined to nature and were quite paganistic in his illustration of his own myths.


I really like one of his mythical characters that he created whose name is Los. He represents human creativity. Los is regularly described as a smith. He often carries his hammer which symbolically represents creativity as well as the beating of the human heart. When I read this, I couldn’t help but feel how connected it is to my idea of the ideal being represented as a heart! Okay but im digressing now. The main thing that I referenced from Blake is his use of triadic harmony in making his paintings look natural. So I tried adding in yellow into my compositions of AB to show how it naturally combines red and blue.

My use of triadic harmony also pushed my idea further for my last composition on the glass.

As Joy mentioned about me going further from the cut-out, i then started thinking about building a construction to be able to will light, changing light that passes through the cut-out.DSC_1702

This wasn’t easy as i thought about multiple ways to do this. I had to think about composition and relevance to my idea. Initially my ideas led me to a simpler construction of moving the cut-out across the three colour filters instead. But then i felt that moving the filters would give a far deeper meaning and would tie in with the idea of the subtraction colour wheel. Settling with this idea, I tried ways to see how long the string would hold with ducktape to find the best way to tape it down.IMG-20151118-WA0004   DSC_1692





Then i had to give thought to how time should look like. Staying with the idea of symbols I went with the idea of the hourglass and the eternity symbol. However, construction the cutout for time was a real pain. i failed a couple of times before deciding that i should go with the stainglass idea.

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These methods of taping only held well for a couple of hours before slacking. I realised that tape should be applied to the bottom of the string to hold the string up since the weight force is pulling the string down. I also changed the slider from the clip to rolls of paper to reduce the weight as well as to spread the weight of the frame to more areas on the string instead of having the weight have a focal pull on a more concentrated point as how you see in the pictures where the construction used the paper clip.


So putting the three pieces from the last equation together, I then thought that it effectively brought through the idea of the ideal me going through time to me in five years where i dont know what i’ll be. And as much as i can change the colour that i choose to be in, my light and colour depends on the light of Nature/Fate/God as well!



After the presentation, I gathered our class’s feedback and stickies and I saw how my presentation format really added good value to my ideas so I’m really glad that I chose to push my presentation boundaries for this final assignment. It is definitely something new that I’ve learnt and I’m really happy that I’m ending 2D for this semester in such a fresh way in terms of gaining new presentation concepts. I also took in the comment that Joy gave about me having my strengths in research. Its something I will heavily consider and I will aim to develop and branch out into other strengths as well.





I have some thoughts in my mind after Joy’s comment on my OSS update and would like to write it here as a record of my reflection.

After Joy’s comment on my progress, I went to read up on “divine” entities and philosophies on divine illuminations. I also looked at the theory of golden proportions. I’m a little upset that i didn’t get to this earlier because I don’t think I can change much of the presentation format that I’ve planned for my work to be in. But time is as such and I will do with what I have. I will continue reading about this to know more before using it for my works. But reading up a bit on philosophies about the divine and about light, it has given me more perspectives to my work.


What is “real”, I can never see for myself. No one can see what real really is because reality just exists for us to be in it. Just as how as human beings, we cannot know everything because our senses are limited to what we are able to smell and see and hear… I can only witness what happens around me and that is my reality. Reflecting on myself, this reality that i witness does go against my heart most of the time and that is what I struggle with. And while i struggle with this, reality continues to run. Reality to me, is what Nature sets it out to be. Not that Nature has intentions and gives a fate to how things happen, but “fate” is what Nature is. I am only witnessing the happenings of Nature. Even in human systems, everything is derived from the purest form of what reality is and that is Nature.

DSC_1686 Continuing my research on how my final work will look like, I continued experimenting with how colours can work together in an image. The colours namely blue and red will act as contrasts in temperature as Goethe has mentioned in his research in the way we associate colours in our culture. However, there are still difficulties that i find working with colours although oil pastels blend pretty well. 

Seeming to be failing with more tries, i got frustrated and did an abstract symbolic composition which i thought could work with more exploration…but, I will leave that to another time because I have to be realistic and keep in time with finishing my work. I cannot explore too far from something that has a higher chance of working out.


From the last consult, I am also getting colour composition ideas from William Blake who is an English poet who paints! He is from the romantic period hence most or else all of his works are related back to nature values which are addressed in my final work idea. I could not adopt his style of drawing form, but what i did pick up was the use of triadic composition. In his works, he often uses red, blue and yellow. By adding yellow in my composition, i felt that it really brings out light and hence brings out an idea of the divine: where the divine in my work relates to divine nature.

Moving away from multiple colours, I decided to see how monochrome works and work with single colours as i would work with a pencil in drawing a subject. The result was pretty good. I realise that sometimes I am so blinded by colour theory that i forget how i naturally work with tones and shades resulting in a less natural representation. So here you see the monochrome blue eye. Eventually i worked on a red eye and went to add yellow to that to see how that works. From this practice i found how colours in my work should not work as colours representing colours per se but colours should work in representing light. Thats what colours are anyway. Colours are light and colours are not colours in that sense. I tend to forget that.


also, to spice things up, I intend to push myself on presentation format. I’ve never played with presentation format in my previous assignments and so for this final one, i thought I should definitely give it a shot. So i spent my weekend getting some simple materials  and drafting some ideas on how to present and frame my squares. I hope it doesn’t end in chaos. DSC_1685

This is what i am doing now. Working on my final squares. Symbols, colours and frame positions. I hope this final work will be a good one for all of you.


Pushed Away

Genre: Drama, Sci-fi, Thriller

Team: Nicholas Makoto, Andrew, Jordan, Hsin Wei


John is a recluse. He spends his days in his room entertaining himself with his electronic devices in the dark. Being only interested in things that don’t require social interaction, he gets annoyed with people, even at his roommate who is one of the only people who actually shows care and concern towards him.

One night, as John sits down at a curb to drink, he is approached by a mysterious man who claims to have a solution to his greatest annoyance. The mysterious man presents John with a device that makes people turn away at a click. Seeing that the device is effective, John uses the device often to get the personal space that he wants.

John is walking back to his room one night and his roommate approaches him along the road. They get into an argument and John uses the device to chase his roommate away. His roommate turns and crosses road, oblivious to a car approaching. John reaches out to pull him back, but it is too late. As he kneels tugging at the lifeless hand of his roommate’s corpse, the mysterious man appears behind them, smiling to himself.


Over the past assignments, i realised that i never rly played around with presentation very much. So i thought i should definitely give it a thought about how i should arrange my visuals. I came up with two arrangement ideas and choosing one of the two was quite a thought because it would totally affect the look of my work. I decided to stay with the arrangement which i call Analytical arrangement where i feel makes the work more exposed in terms of personal expression which is going to be a challenge and i am honestly slightly skeptical about it because i dont feel completely comfortable talking about myself to people.

I also decided to leave behind my math tendencies for a bit. After thinking about the equations that i came up with i thought im not entirely a math person so i didnt think i should express myself entirely out of equations. its rly too much math even for me although i do love math hahah…

So instead, i decided to do something that i felt was something that was more comfortable. I decided to use symbols to express my ideas. Here, the eye representing the realistic part of me and my heart representing the idealistic part of me. And these two are forever wrestling in me.



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I am using the colours violet and red, tending more to the play of analogous harmony and contrast to show the wrestling of these two sides of me. For now i am playing around with mediums. In these pieces i am practicing the combining of the symbols of the eye and heart to show how i try to have these entities come together to work.

DSC_1645Playing with poster colour, trying to see how these colours can blend and transit.

I am currently quite stuck on how to move forward so i decided i should at least play around a bit to get myself moving and i hope something will click and i’ll know better what to do. (idk if other assignments are clogging my creative mind but i hope that won’t be an excuse).


I am also playing with natural light in one of my equations. I believe in the values of nature and i believe that these values will help me move forward towards the ideal where the real and ideal coexist. What will nature light up for me? idk. Currently i confess that my progress seems to be in broken pieces imo. But I am truly grateful that Joy was able to make the assignment extension and i hope this extension really helps me work for a better result for this final assignment. I definitely need this time to further reflect so that i feel good about what im doing for this assignment. But for now, this is what i have!