Foundation 2D – (True story, though. Your friends really do bring insight into your life.)

Hello friends! After much deliberation, I’ve decided on my first two equations, as well as my intended medium. This post is going to be a bit short (skipping the brainstorming) because it’s mainly to get some feedback about my ideas – if anyone is reading this, please do drop a comment! or comment with your spirit sea animal I’d love to hear your thoughts.

When I was working on my project, after the many reflections and brainstorming, I realised that there was one thing I needed to clarify.

What am I trying to say?

Chapter 1: Ego, Intention

This project is intended as an insight to me.

• How am I like? …that no one usually sees?
• That only my close friends see?
• What are my struggles?

Through this project, I want to convey certain character traits that I recognise myself to have.

• Childlikeness – my love for life; vibrance
• My strong sense of duty & responsibility
• Homeliness, warmth, personableness

The list might grow as I discover more of myself in this project, but so far, these are the ones I have thought of. Life isn’t a bed of roses for anyone and that includes me – but I’ll need to reflect more about this.

Beyond just finishing an assignment, I want to learn more about myself too.

 

Chapter 2: Ego, Situations

1. Me + Emotions = Bottle Them Up

I have a tendency to bottle up my emotions; I tend to skim over them as well, or dismiss them. I feel very intensely but I don’t show it often. One reason is because I’m always, always striving to be a better person, and I feel like my emotions are very selfish things to have. For example, to be angry/annoyed at someone would make the person feel bad if I expressed it towards them – so if it were a small wrong done against me, I shrug the emotion off. When I’m stressed, I also tend to pretend that everything is alright and try my best to keep myself together.

 

The side effect is, of course, the bottling up of my feelings. The frustration of not being able to express myself usually builds and overflows.

A random tidbit: this is actually how I made one of my best friends? She noticed that I was bottling up my emotions and wrote it down in one of the class camp activity sheets. Maybe the reason why we became such great friends was because I felt comforted by the fact that someone saw.

2. Me + Setbacks in Life = Gets Stronger

One thing I pride myself on is my ability to grow and overcome situations. Aside from the bad habit of trying to appear unshakeable, my ability to bounce back from whatever situation in my life (and my knowing that I have that ability) strengthens me and gives me confidence. It’s something personal to me, something positive. It is also why I tend to move on from things very quickly, especially things that I feel are a failure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JARVfb-FBg

Of course, this opens a whole new (negative) can of worms – the independent streak can sometimes overshadow relationships in my life. However, the feeling that I want to bring across in this assignment (through my style and execution) is something fun and a child-like innocence, so the final work is not going to be about that, but about optimism and an almost naive hopefulness.

With that I conclude my first OSS post for Ego. More to come soon.